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myself to consider the horrors
we were headed toward； or； more horrific yet； the chance that we might fail—
not if I wanted to keep
from screaming aloud。
I couldn't anticipate anything； either。 Maybe； if I were very； very； very
lucky； I would somehow be able
to save Edward。 But I wasn't so stupid as to think that saving him would mean
that I could stay with him。
I was no different； no more special than I'd been before。 There would be no
new reason for him to want
me now。 Seeing him and losing him again
I fought back against the pain。 This was the price I had to pay to save his
life。 I would pay it。
They showed a movie； and my neighbor got headphones。 Sometimes I watched the
figures moving
across the little screen； but I couldn't even tell if the movie was supposed
to be a romance or a horror
film。
After an eternity； the plane began to descend toward New York City。 Alice
remained in her trance。 I
dithered； reaching out to touch her； only to pull my hand back again。 This
happened a dozen times before
the plane touched town with a jarring impact。
〃Alice；〃 I finally said。 〃Alice； we have to go。〃
I touched her arm。
Her eyes came open very slowly。 She shook her head from side to side for a
moment。
〃Anything new？〃 I asked in a low voice； conscious of the man listening on the
other side of me。
〃Not exactly；〃 she breathed in a voice I could barely catch。 〃He's getting
closer。 He's deciding how he's
going to ask。〃
We had to run for our connection； but that was good—better than having to
wait。 As soon as the plane
was in the air； Alice closed her eyes and slid back into the same stupor as
before。 I waited as patiently as
I could。 When it was dark again； I opened the window to stare out into the
flat black that was no better
than the window shade。
I was grateful that I'd had so many months' practice with controlling my
thoughts。 Instead of dwelling on
the terrifying possibilities that； no matter what Alice said； I did not intend
to survive； I concentrated on
lesser problems。 Like； what I was going to say to Charlie if I got back：' That
was a thorny enough
problem to occupy several hours。 And Jacob？ He'd promised to wait for me； but
did that promise still
apply？ Would I end up home alone in Forks； with no one at all？ Maybe I didn't
want to survive； no
matter what happened。
It felt like seconds later when Alice shook my shoulder—I hadn't realized I'd
fallen asleep。
〃Bella；〃 she hissed； her voice a little too loud in the darkened cabin full of
sleeping humans。
I wasn't disoriented—I hadn't been out long enough for that。
〃What's wrong？〃
Alice's eyes gleamed in the dim light of a reading lamp in the row behind us。
〃It's not wrong。〃 She smiled fiercely。 〃It's right。 They're deliberating； but
they've decided to tell him no。〃
〃The Volturi？〃 I muttered； groggy。
〃Of course； Bella； keep up。 I can see what they're going to say。〃
〃Tellme。〃
An attendant tiptoed down the aisle to us。 〃Can I get you ladies a pillow？〃
His hushed whisper was a
rebuke to our paratively loud conversation。
〃No； thank you。〃 Alice beamed at up at him； her smile shockingly lovely。 The
attendant's expression was
dazed as he turned and stumbled his way back。
〃Tell me；〃 I breathed almost silently。
She whispered into my ear。 〃They're interested in him—they think his talent
could be uselul。 They're going
to offer him a place with them。〃
〃What will he say？〃
〃I can't see that yet； but I'll bet it's colorful。〃 She grinned again。 〃This
is the first good news—the first
break。 They're intrigued； they truly don't want to destroy him—'wasteful；'
that's the word Aro will
use—and that may be enough to force him to get creative。 The longer he spends
on his plans； the better
for us。〃
It wasn't enough to make me hopeful； to make me feel the relief she obviously
felt。 There were still so
many ways that we could be too late。 And if I didn't get through the walls
into the Volturi city； I wouldn't
be able to stop Alice from dragging me back home。
〃Alice？〃
〃What？〃
〃I'm confused。 How are you seeing this so clearly？ And then other times； you
see things far away—things
that don't happen？〃
Her eyes tightened。 I wondered if she guessed what I was thinking of。
〃It's clear because it's immediate and close； and I'm really concentrating。
The faraway things that e on
their own—those are just glimpses； faint maybes。 Plus； I see my kind more
easily than yours。 Edward is
even easier because I'm so attuned to him。〃
〃You see me sometimes；〃 I reminded her。
She shook her head。 〃Not as clearly。〃
I sighed。 〃I really wish you could have been right about me。 In the beginning；
when you first saw things
about me； before we even met〃
〃What do you mean？〃
〃You saw me bee one of you。〃 I barely mouthed the words。
She sighed。 〃It was a possibility at the time。〃
〃At the time；〃 I repeated。
〃Actually； Bella〃 She hesitated； and then seemed to make a choice。
〃Honestly； I think it's all gotten
beyond ridiculous。 I'm debating whether to just change you myself。〃
I stared at her； frozen with shock。 Instantly； my mind resisted her words。 I
couldn't afford that kind of
hope if she changed her mind。
〃Did I scare you？〃 she wondered。 〃I thought that's what you wanted。〃
〃I do！〃 I gasped。 〃Oh； Alice； do it now！ I could help you so much—and I
wouldn't slow you down。 Bite
me！〃
〃Shh；〃 she cautioned。 The attendant was looking in our direction again。 〃Try
to be reasonable；〃 she
whispered。 〃We don't have enough time。 We have to get into Volterra tomorrow。
You'd be writhing in
pain for days。〃 She made a face。 〃And I don't think the other passengers would
react well。〃
I bit my lip。 〃If you don't do it now； you'll change your mind。〃
〃No。〃 She frowned； her expression unhappy。 〃I don't think I will。 He'll be
furious； but what will he be able
to do about it？〃
My heart beat faster。 〃Nothing at all。〃
She laughed quietly； and then sighed。 〃You have too much faith in me； Bella。
I'm not sure that I can。 I'll
probably just end up killing you。〃
〃I'll take my chances。〃
〃You are so bizarre； even for a