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〃Isn't there any way for you to get free？〃 I whispered； touching the rough
edge at the back of his shorn
hair。
His hands began to tremble； but he didn't open his eyes。 〃No。 I'm in this for
life。 A life sentence。〃 A bleak
laugh。 〃Longer； maybe。〃
〃No； Jake；〃 I moaned。 〃What if we ran away？ Just you and me。 What if we left
home； and left Sam
behind？〃
〃It's not something I can run away from； Bella；〃 he whispered。 〃I would run
with you； though； if I could。〃
His shoulders were shaking now； too。 He took a deep breath。 〃Look； I've got to
leave。〃
〃Why？〃
〃For one thing； you look like you're going to pass out at any second。 You need
your sleep—I need you
firing on all pistons。 You're going to figure this out； you have to。〃
〃And why else？〃
He frowned。 〃I had to sneak out—I'm not supposed to see you。 They've got to
be wondering where I
am。〃 His mouth twisted。 〃I suppose I should go let them know。〃
〃You don't have to tell them anything；〃 I hissed。
〃All the same； I will。〃
The anger flashed hot inside me。 〃I hate them！〃
Jacob looked at me with wide eyes； surprised。 〃No； Bella。 Don't hate the guys。
It's not Sam's or any of
the others' faults。 I told you before—it's me。 Sam is actually well；
incredibly cool。 Jared and Paul are
great； too； though Paul is kind of And Embry's always been my friend。
Nothing's changed there—the
only thing that hasn't changed。 I feel really bad abour the things I used to
think about Sam〃
〃Sam was incredibly cool。〃 I glared at him in disbelief； but let it go。
〃Then why aren't you supposed to see me？〃 I demanded。
〃It's not safe；〃 he mumbled looking down。
His words sent a thrill of fear through me。
Did he know that； too？ Nobody knew that besides me。 But he was right—it was
the middle of the night；
the perfect time for hunting。 Jacob shouldn't be here in my room。 If someone
came for me； I had ：o be
alone。
〃If I thought it was too too risky；〃 he whispered； 〃I wouldn't have e。
But Bella；〃 he looked at me
again； 〃I made you a promise。 I had no idea it would be so hard to keep； but
that doesn't mean I'm not
going to try。〃
He saw the inprehension in my face。 〃After that stupid movie；〃 he reminded
me。 〃I promised you that
I wouldn't ever hurt you So I really blew it this afternoon； didn't I？〃
〃I know you didn't want to do it； Jake。 It's okay。〃
〃Thanks； Bella。〃 He took my hand。 〃I'm going to do what I can to be here for
you； just like I promised。〃
He grinned at me suddenly。 The grin was not mine； nor Sam's； but some strange
bination of the two。
〃It would really help if you could figure this out on your own； Bella。 Put
some honest effort into it。〃
I made a weak grimace。 〃I'll try。〃
〃And I'll try to see you soon。〃 He sighed。 〃And they'll try to talk me out of
that。〃
〃Don't listen to them。〃
〃I'll try。〃 He shook his head； as if he doubted his success。 〃e and tell me
as soon as you figure it out。〃
Something occurred to him just then； something that made his hands shake。 〃If
you if you want to。〃
〃Why wouldn't I want to see you？〃
His face turned hard and bitter； one hundred percent the face that belonged to
Sam。 〃Oh； I can think of a
reason；〃 he said in a harsh tone。 〃Look； I really have to go。 Could you do
something for me？〃
I just nodded； frightened of the change in him。
〃At least call me—if you don't want to see me again。 Let me know if it's like
that。〃
〃That won't happen—〃
He raised one hand； cutting me off。 〃Just let me know。〃
He stood and headed for the window。
〃Don't be an idiot； Jake；〃 I plained。 〃You'll break your leg。 Use the door。
Charlie's not going to catch
you。〃
〃I won't get hurt；〃 he muttered； but he turned for the door。 He hesitated as
he passed me； staring at me
with an expression like something was stabbing him。 He held one hand out；
pleading。
I took his hand； and suddenly he yanked me—too roughly—right off the bed so
that I thudded against his
chest。
〃Just in case；〃 he muttered against my hair； crushing me in a bear hug that
about broke my ribs。
〃Can't—breathe！〃 I gasped。
He dropped me at once； keeping one hand at my waist so I didn't fall over。 He
pushed me； more gently
this time； back down on the bed。
〃Get some sleep； Bells。 You've got to get your head working。 I know you can do
this。 I need you。 to
understand。 I won't lose you； Bella。 Not for this。〃
He was to the door in one stride； opening it quietly； and then disappearing
through it。 I listened for him to
hit the squeaky step in the stairs； but there was no sound。
I lay back on my bed； my head spinning。 I was too confused； too worn out。 I
closed my eyes； trying to
make sense of it； only to be swallowed up by unconsciousness so swiftly that
it was disorienting。
It was not the peaceful； creamless sleep I'd yearned for—of course not。 I was
in the forest again； and I
started to wander the way I always did。
I quickly became aware that this was not the same dream as usual。 For one
thing； I felt no pulsion to
wander or to search； I was merely wandering out of habit； because that was
what was usually expected
of me here。 Actually； this wasn't even the same forest。 The smell was
different； and the light； too。 It
smelled； not like the damp earth of the woods； but like the brine of the
ocean。 I couldn't see the sky； still；
it seemed like the sun must be shining—the leaves above were bright jade
green。
This was the forest around La Push—near the beach there； I was sure of it。 I
knew that if I found the
beach； I would be able to see the sun； so I hurried forward； following the
faint sound of waves in the
distance。
And then Jacob was there。 He grabbed my hand； pulling me back toward the
blackest part of the forest。
〃Jacob； what's wrong？〃 I asked。 His face was the frightened face of a boy； and
his hair was beautiful
again； swept back into a ponytail on the nape of his neck。 He yanked with all
his strength； but I resisted； I
didn't want to go into the dark。
〃Run； Bella； you have to run！〃 he whispered； terrified。
The abrupt wave of deja vu was so strong it nearly woke me up。
I knew why I recognized this place now。