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‘In what way？’
‘Well … you know … helping。’
She closed her eyes and massaged the bridge of her nose and her eyelids with her thumb and forefinger。
‘I always thought he seemed a bit unreliable；’ said Colin’s voice。
‘Really？’ said Tessa； from the depths of her voluntary darkness。
‘Yes。 Remember when he said he’d e and referee for that game against Paxton High？ And he cancelled with about half an hour’s notice and Bateman had to do it instead？’
Tessa fought down an impulse to snap。 Colin had a habit of making sweeping judgements based on first impressions； on single actions。 He never seemed to grasp the immense mutability of human nature； nor to appreciate that behind every nondescript face lay a wild and unique hinterland like his own。
‘Well； he’s being lovely with the kids；’ said Tessa carefully。 ‘I’ve got to go to bed。’
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She did not move； but sat concentrating on the separate aches in different parts of her body： in her feet； her lower back； her shoulders。
‘Tess； I’ve been thinking。’
‘Hmm？’
Glasses shrank Colin’s eyes to mole…like proportions； so that the high； balding knobbly forehead seemed even more pronounced。
‘Everything Barry was trying to do on the Parish Council。 Everything he was fighting for。 The Fields。 The addiction clinic。 I’ve been thinking about it all day。’ He drew a deep inward breath。 ‘I’ve pretty much decided that I’m going to take over for him。’
Misgivings crashed over Tessa； pinning her to her chair； rendering her momentarily speechless。 She struggled to keep her expression professionally neutral。
‘I’m sure it’s what Barry would have wanted；’ said Colin。 His strange excitement was tinged with defensiveness。
Never； said Tessa’s most honest self； never for a second would Barry have wanted you to do this。 He would have known you are the very last person who ought to do it。
‘Gosh；’ she said。 ‘Well。 I know Barry was very … but it would be a huge mitment； Colin。 And it’s not as though Parminder’s gone。 She’s still there； and she’ll still be trying to do everything Barry wanted。’
I should have phoned Parminder； thought Tessa as she said it； with a guilty bump in her stomach。 Oh； God； why didn’t I think to call Parminder？
‘But she’ll need support； she’ll never be able to stand up to them all on her own；’ said Colin。 ‘And I guarantee Howard Mollison will be lining up some puppet to replace Barry right now。 He’s probably already—’
‘Oh； Colin—’
‘I bet he has！ You know what he’s like！’
The papers in Colin’s lap fell； disregarded； in a smooth white waterfall onto the floor。
‘I want to do this for Barry。 I’ll take over where he left off。 I’ll make sure everything he worked for doesn’t go up in smoke。 I know the arguments。 He always said he got opportunities he’d never have had otherwise； and look how much he gave back to the munity。 I’m definitely going to stand。 I’m going to look into what I’ve got to do； tomorrow。’
‘All right；’ said Tessa。 Years of experience had taught her that Colin ought not to be opposed in the first throes of his enthusiasm； or it would simply entrench him in his determination to proceed。 Those same years had taught Colin that Tessa often pretended to agree before raising objections。 These kinds of exchanges were always infused with their mutual； unexpressed remembrance of that long…buried secret。 Tessa felt that she owed him。 He felt that he was owed。
‘This is something I really want to do； Tessa。’
‘I understand that； Colin。’
She pulled herself out of the chair； wondering whether she would have the energy to get upstairs。
‘Are you ing to bed？’
‘In a minute。 I want to finish looking through these first。’
He was gathering up the printed sheets he had let fall； his reckless new project seemed to be giving him a feverish energy。
Tessa undressed slowly in their bedroom。 Gravity seemed to have bee more powerful； it was such an effort to lift her limbs； to force her recalcitrant zip to do as she wished。 She pulled on her dressing gown and went into the bathroom； where she could hear Fats moving around overhead。 She often felt lonely and drained these days； shuttling between her husband and son； who seemed to exist entirely independently； as alien to each other as landlord and lodger。
Tessa went to take off her wristwatch； then realized that she had mislaid it yesterday。 So tired … she kept losing things … and how could she have forgotten to call Parminder？ Tearful； worried and tense； she shuffled off to bed。
Wednesday
I
Krystal Weedon had spent Monday and Tuesday nights on her friend Nikki’s bedroom floor after an especially bad fight with her mother。 This had started when Krystal arrived home from hanging out with her mates at the precinct and found Terri talking to Obbo on the doorstep。 Everyone in the Fields knew Obbo； with his bland puffy face and his gap…toothed grin； his bottle…bottom glasses and his filthy old leather jacket。
‘Jus’ keep ’em ’ere fer us； Ter； fer a coupla days？ Few quid in it for yeh？’
‘Wha’s she keepin’？’ Krystal had demanded。 Robbie scrambled out from between Terri’s legs to cling tightly to Krystal’s knees。 Robbie did not like men ing to the house。 He had good reason。
‘Nuthin’。 pu’ers。’
‘Don’；’ Krystal had said to Terri。
She did not want her mother to have spare cash。 She would not have put it past Obbo to cut out the middle step and pay her for the favour with a bag of smack。
‘Don’ take ’em。’
But Terri had said yes。 All Krystal’s life； her mother had said yes to everything and everyone： agreeing； accepting； forever acquiescing： yeah； all righ’； go on then； ’ere yeh go； no problem。
Krystal had gone to hang out at the swings under a darkening sky with her friends。 She felt strained and irritable。 She could not seem to grasp the fact of Mr Fairbrother’s death； but kept experiencing punches to the stomach that made her want to lash out at somebody。 She was also unsettled and guilty about having stolen Tessa Wall’s watch。 But why had the silly bitch put it there in front of Krystal and closed her eyes？ What did she expect？
Being with the