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s intent upon me。 * * * *
‘I write with so much difficulty； the cold is so severe； I am so fearful of being detected and consigned to an underground cell and total darkness； that I must abridge this narrative。 There is no confusion or failure in my memory； it can recall； and could detail； every word that was ever spoken between me and those brothers。
‘She lingered for a week。 Towards the last； I could understand some few syllables that she said to me； by placing my ear close to her lips。 She asked me where she was； and I told her； who I was； and I told her。 It was in vain that I asked her for her family name。 She faintly shook her head upon the pillow； and kept her secret； as the boy had done。
‘I had no opportunity of asking her any question； until I had told the brothers she was sinking fast； and could not live another day。 Until then； though no one was ever presented to her consciousness save the woman and myself； one or other of them had always jealously sat behind the curtain at the head of the bed when I was there。 But when it came to that； they seemed careless what munication I might hold with her； as if……the thought passed through my mind……I were dying too。
‘I always observed that their pride bitterly resented the younger brother's （as I call him） having crossed swords with a peasant； and that peasant a boy。 The only consideration that appeared to affect the mind of either of them was the consideration that this was highly degrading to the family； and was ridiculous。 As often as I caught the younger brother's eyes； their expression reminded me that he disliked me deeply； fur knowing what I knew from the boy。 He was smoother and more polite to me than the elder； but I saw this。 I also saw that I was an incumbrance in the mind of the elder； too。
‘My patient died； two hours before midnight……at a time； by my watch； answering almost to the minute when I had first seen her。 I was alone with her； when her forlorn young head trooped gently on one side； and all her earthly wrongs and sorrows ended。
‘The brothers were waiting in a room down…stairs； impatient to ride away。 I had heard them； alone at the bedside； striking their boots with their riding…whips； and loitering up and down。
‘〃At last she is dead？〃 said the elder； when I went in。
‘〃She is dead；〃 said I。
‘〃I congratulate you； my brother；〃 were his words as he turned round。
‘He had before offered me money； which I had postponed taking。 He now gave me a rouleau of gold。 I took it from his hand； but laid it on the table。 I had considered the question； and had resolved to accept nothing。
‘〃Pray excuse me；〃 said I。 〃Under the circumstances； no。〃 ‘They exchanged looks； but bent their heads to me as I bent mine to them； and we parted without another word on either side。 * * * *
‘I am weary； weary； weary……worn down by misery。 I cannot read what I have written with this gaunt hand。
‘Early in the morning； the rouleau of gold was left at m' door in a little box； with my name on the outside。 From the first； I had anxiously considered what I ought to do。 I decided； that day； to write privately to the Minister； stating the nature of the two eases to which I had been summoned； and the place to which I had gone： in effect； stating all the circumstances。 I knew what Court influence was； and what the immunities of the Nobles were； and I expected that the matter would never be heard of； but； I wished to relieve my own mind。 I had kept the matter a profound secret； even from my wife； and this； too； I resolved to state in my letter。 I had no apprehension whatever of my real danger； but I was conscious that there might be danger for others； if others were promised by possessing the knowledge that I possessed。
‘I was much engaged that day； and could not plete my letter that night。 I rose long before my usual time next morning to finish it。 It was the last day of the year。 The letter was lying before me just pleted； when I was told that a lady waited； who wished to see me。 * * * *
‘I am growing more and more unequal to the task I have set myself。 It is so cold； so dark； my senses are so benumbed； and the gloom upon me is so dreadful。
‘The lady was young； engaging； and handsome； but not marked for long life。 She was in great agitation。 She presented herself to me as the wife of the Marquis St。 Evrémonde。 I connected the title by which the boy had addressed the elder brother； with the initial letter embroidered on the scarf； and had no difficulty in arriving at the conclusion that I had seen that nobleman very lately。
‘My memory is still accurate； but I cannot write the words of Our conversation。 I suspect that I am watched more closely than I was； and I know not at what times I may be watched。 She had in part suspected； and in part discovered； the main facts of the cruel story； of her husband's share in it； and my being resorted to。 She did not know that the girl was dead。 Her hope had been； she said in great distress； to show her； in secret； a woman's sympathy。 Her hope had been to avert the wrath of Heaven from a House that had long been hateful to the suffering many。
‘She had reasons for believing that there was a young sister living； and her greatest desire was； to help that sister。 I could tell her nothing but that there was such a sister； beyond that； I knew nothing。 Her inducement to e to me； relying on my confidence； had been the hope that I could tell her the name and place of abode。 Whereas； to this wretched hour I am ignorant of both。 * * * *
‘These scraps of paper fail me。 One was taken from me； with a warning； yesterday。 I must finish my record to…day。
‘She was a good； passionate lady； and not happy in her marriage。 How could she be！ The brother distrusted and disliked her； and his influence was all opposed to her； she stood in dread of him； and in dead of her husband too。 When I handed her down to the door； there was a child； a pretty boy from two to three years old； in her carriage。
‘〃For his sake； Doctor；〃 she said； pointing to him in tears； 〃I would do all I can to make what poor amends I can。 He will never prosper in his inheritance otherwise。 I have a presentiment that if no other innocent atonement is made for this； it will one day be required of him。 What