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division head who always intimidated us with a ruler。 In consolation； my
dearly departed mother advised me that there were two types of people in the
world： those who were cowed and crushed by their childhood beatings； forever
downtrodden； she said； because the beatings had the desired effect of killing
the inner devils； and those fortunate ones for whom the beatings frightened
and tamed the devil within without killing him off。 Though the latter group
would never forget these painful childhood memories—she’d warned me not
to tell this to anybody—the beatings would in time enable them to develop
cunning； to fathom the unknown； to make friends； to identify enemies； to
sense plots being hatched behind their backs and； let me hasten to add； to
paint better than anyone else。 Because I wasn’t able to draw the branches of a
tree harmoniously； Master Osman would slap me so hard that； amid bitter
tears； forests would burgeon before me。 After angrily striking me in the head
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because I couldn’t see the errors at the bottoms of pages； he lovingly took up a
mirror and placed it before the page so I could see the work as if for the first
time。 Then pressing his cheek to mine； he so lovingly identified the mistakes
that magically appeared in the mirror image of the picture that I never forgot
either the love or the ritual。 The morning after a night spent weeping in my
bed； my pride violated because he chastised me with a ruler before everyone；
he came and kissed my arms so tenderly that I passionately knew I’d one day
bee a legendary miniaturist。 Nay； it was not I who drew that horse。”
“We；” Black was referring to Stork and himself； “will search the dervish
house for the last picture which was stolen by the accursed man who
murdered my Enishte。 Did you ever see that last picture？”
“It is nothing that could be accepted by Our Sultan； illuminators like us
bound to the old masters or by Muslims bound to their faith；” I said and fell
silent。
My statement made him more eager。 He and Stork began their search of the
premises； turning the whole place upside down。 A few times； simply to make
their work easier； I went to them。 In one of the dervish cells with a leaky
ceiling； I pointed out the hole in the floor so they wouldn’t fall and could
search it if they so desired。 I gave them the large key to the small room in
which the sheikh lived thirty years ago； before the adherents of this lodge
joined up with the Bektashis and dispersed。 They entered eagerly； but when
they saw that an entire wall was missing and the room was open to the rain；
they didn’t even bother to search it。
It pleased me that Butterfly wasn’t with them； but if evidence implicating
me were found； he； too； would join their ranks。 Stork was of the same mind as
Black； who was afraid that Master Osman would turn us over to the torturers；
and maintained that we must support one another and must be united in
confronting the Head Treasurer。 I sensed Black was not only motivated by the
desire to give Shekure a genuine wedding present by finding his Enisthe’s
murderer； he also intended to set Ottoman miniaturists on the path of
European masters by paying them with the Sultan’s money in order to finish
his Enishte’s book in imitation of the Franks （which was not only sacrilegious；
but ridiculous）。 I also understood； with some certainty； that at the root of this
scheme was Stork’s desire to be rid of us and even of Master Osman； for he
dreamt of being Head Illuminator and （since everyone guessed that Master
Osman preferred Butterfly） he was prepared to try anything to increase his
chances。 I was momentarily confused。 Listening to the rain； I deliberated at
length。 Next； like a man who breaks away from the crowd and struggles to give
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his petition to the sovereign and grand vizier as they pass on horseback； I had
the sudden inspiration to endear myself to Stork and Black。 Leading them
through a dark hallway and large portal； I took them to a frightening room
that was once the kitchen。 I asked them if they were able to find anything here
among the ruins。 Of course； they hadn’t。 There was no trace of the kettles； the
pots and pans and the bellows that were once used to prepare food for the
forsaken and the poor。 I never even attempted to clean up this ghastly room
covered in cobwebs； dust； mud； debris and the excrement of dogs and cats。 As
always； a strong wind； rising up as if out of nowhere； dimmed the lamp—
making our shadows now lighter； now darker。
“You searched and searched but you couldn’t find my hidden treasure；” I
said。
Out of habit； I used the back of my hand as a broom to sweep away the
ashes in what used to be a hearth and when an old stove emerged； I lifted up
its iron lid with a creak。 I held the lamp to the small mouth of the stove。 I shall
never forget how Stork leapt forward and greedily grabbed the leather pouches
within before Black could act。 He was about to open the pouches right there in
the mouth of the oven； but as I had returned to the large salon； followed by
Black who was afraid of remaining here； Stork bounded after us on his long
thin legs。
When they saw that one pouch contained a pair of clean woolen socks； my
drawstring trousers； my red underwear； the nicest of my undershirts； my silk
shirt； my straight razor； my b and other belongings； they were
momentarily at a loss。 Out of the other pouch； which Black opened； emerged
fifty…three Veian gold coins； pieces of gold leaf that I’d stolen from the
workshop in recent years； my sketchbook of model forms which I concealed
from everybody； more stolen gold leaf hidden between the pages； indecent
pictures—some of which I’d drawn myself and some I’d collected—a keepsake
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